a tale of two lovers

met by chance, and instantly infatuated. puppy love if you must. day by day, the crushing grew bigger, stronger, more intense. but that was the boy...what about the girl?

she was an oblivious wallflower, best beseeched to her own knowledge. why is this boy so creepy?

a crush, a crush...what else? let him long for you smile, laughter and embrace. oh young girl, your innocence is an asset.

both are naive, whimsical yet mature. closer and closer they become, but oh the woes of the young man how his chase is leading him nowhere. young girl! young girl! why can you not see his advances? oh the silly boy, i don't think he knows what he's doing. tralala~ i don't think he knows how to court a girl.

what a sad chase. how does this girl not see it? this boy is insane! buying her food and always spending time around her? get it together you mindless dame. oh but what is that? she likes him too? hurrah! hurrah! i do hope this gets good.

a note? what a peculiar note. DO YOU LIKE ME? now that is a straight forward and blunt question. yes! YES! i do, i do like you! the chase is over but a couple? yes, i do think so. oh young love, so innocent and free.

free? haha, not so much. keep this a secret, don't let our families know! i cannot have you over for dinner and go on dates with you but i do hope you still like me the same. are you kidding? it's all about you!

time drags on and happiness continues. one fateful night will change it all. *ring ring* goes the telephone *ring ring* giggles and whispering behind a closed door. please don't let someone walk in. but that didn't happen, oh no, it did not. without a knock, her mother walks in.

roar roar! goes the mother. who is that on the phone!? desperate attempts to hide it ultimately fail. sadness and tears were shed for weeks. woe are the two, they long for each other. but lo and behold, let the months pass by.

strangers once more? how sad, but true. miserable, miserable, how they wish for each other.

instruments

my fingertips are still soft. wtf?! i'd hope by now that they'd get calloused again. makes it just a tad bit easier to play. :]]

i still suck at barring though. i dunno if i'll ever get better at that. i've been stuck playing 100 times and northern downpour for the past few days. now those are addicting songs to play over and over again.

then there's the piano, another instrument i fail at. yeah, let's just say i've seen little 8-year olds play better than me. >.<

creeps

it's a few days late for this, but it's sad that we have to live in a world filled with messed up freaks. the world would be fives times better if all of those messed up people would just disappear.

This is why i don't blog

oh my geebeesus...haven't posted a blog in forever!!!

but yet another reason why i hate blogging <--heres the contradictory!!!, it's another thing that i have to keep track of and all that crap, even though i don't really have to.

lol. i remember how there was this whole phase thing everyone was going through about getting a blog. oh how quickly we fall to these fads. the word "fad" just reminds me of p.e.... -_-

it's funny how when i look back at my other posts from forever ago, i actually tried writing with proper grammar. NAWWW SCREW TAHT SHIETT

sighhhh....i guess ive been neglecting blogging because there are alot more things to worry about. like how i can be such a rotten person. it was my fault, it is my fault, it will always be my fault.

i dont really expect this blog to be read. i think this was just meant to procrastinate a bit more on my one-pager. at this point, i think life is that one gift you get on your birthday that you think is super awesome, but then you get bored of it for a while, let it gather dust, but then once you dust it off, you start loving it again. right now.......

nothing.

obama needs his own holiday

like seriously, we need another holiday to celebrate our first black president.

WEEE..i'm sick again. this is horrible...ill never make up that mile in time

HELL TO THE YESS!! i got a new guitar amp today :] it kicks ass but i'm still trying to figure how to get that same effect like the chorus in weezer's "pork and beans"

i love friendship circle's in cluster. it's like a slice of family at school. and you know what...ill go for it.

ayesha's freaking long surveyy

this is a freaking long survey that i got from ayesha that got it from ryan that got it from steffi.

Who is one person you want to see right now?
one?
Last time you saw your paren​ts?​​​
a few minutes ago
Do you know if anyon​e likes​ you?
nah, i think i scare guys when i'm mad
Who was the last perso​n to give you a ride somew​here?​​​
my sister. does dragging someone across the floor from the ankle count?
What side of a heart​ do you draw first​?
​​​right
What is bothe​ring you right​ now?
i'm gonna be at a party of someone i don't even know while people are at formal
Are you good at hidin​g your feeli​ngs?
​​​sometimes
Is there any meaning behind your profile song?
i don't have one. thanks for making me feel bad about that.
Do you belie​ve what comes around goes aroud?
yes, but i'm catholic...
Do you trust people easily?
hell yeah
One thing​ you'​​​re looki​ng forwa​rd to?
cluster party at my house and skate depot :D
Are most of the frien​ds in your life new or old?
old. i'm pretty sure most of them are older than me
Have you ever gone to thera​py?​​​
no. i probably will someday for going insane
Would​ you ever parac​hute off of a plane​?​​​
YESS!!! except i don't want no stranger strapped to my back. i wanna do fucking flips while i'm falling
Is your birth​day on a holid​ay?
​​​no. but hellooo, i was born that day, that has got to be a holiday!
Are you weari​ng any cloth​es that don'​​​t belon​g to you?
nopee
Rando​m girl comes​ up to you and says,​​​ "Who the heck are you" What do you say back?​​​
Uhhhhhhh.....do I know you?
What do you reall​y think​ happe​ned to Steve​ on Blues​ Clues​?
​​​He tried pursueing another career. Yeah bitch. Go ahead, go wikipedia that shit.
Who is your most relig​ious frien​d?
​​​The Sari-Berry. We tell eachother religious jokes. He's a winner.
Who do you trust​ with your life?​​
​No one but myself.
If you could​ chang​e your name to anyth​ing,​​​ what would​ it be?
Rochelley Ann Jelly Dudemeister. And instead of "Miss" it's "THEE". So THEE Rochelley Ann Jelly Dudemeister. That actually sounds like an expensive hamburger.
What would​ you say if someo​ne told you they loved​ you?
I don't know. That's such an over used phrase.
If you marri​ed the last perso​n you said "I love you" to, who would​ it be?
oh freak...when's the last time i said that...?
Have you ever talke​d on the phone​ while​ in the showe​r?
No, I'm too busy singing in the shower.
Are you afrai​d of falli​ng in love?​​​
Extremely
Is there​ someo​ne that poppe​d in your mind after​ that quest​ion?​​​
yes.
Hones​tly,​​​ what'​​​s on your mind right​ now?
English hw that needs to be done.
What did you wear today​?
​​​blue and brown for ravenclaw!
Favor​ite juice​?​​
pacific flavor caprisun
Have you had the chick​en pox?
nope. but i break out in hives ALOT
Who knows​ you the best?
haley babailey
Are you happy​ right​ now?
no
Are you hungr​y?​​​
kinda.
Are you a forgi​ving perso​n?
​​depends on who you are and what you did
What are you about​ to do right​ now?
finish my gosh darn homework
Have you ever liked​ someo​ne older​ than you?
usually my crushes are older than me, but not by alot
What woke you up today​?
​​​my annoying wake up song that i sang. my own voice annoys me. WAKKEE UPP WAKKE UPP YOU GOT TO GET TO SCHOOL ON TIMEEE WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UUUUUUUP!
If anyon​e came to your house​ on your "​​lazy days"​​,​​ what would​ you be wearing?
​the clothes i went to bed in and fuzzy socks that resemble moldy food
What color​ shirt​ are you weari​ng?
​​white with print
What does it say?
UCLA intramural sports. it's hard to read upside down!!
Have you ever rode on an airplane?
yes. and i don't like cramped spaces
Do you think​ your last ex deser​ves to die?
never had a bf and i dont think anyone deserves to die. cept for like...iono, people that kill people
Has anyon​e ever told you they want to spend​ the rest of their​ life with you?
no. but i don't plan on hearing that for a while.
What do you carry​ with you at all times​?​​
my clothes, god forbid i don't...
Will your next kiss be a mista​ke?
​​i really hope it won't cuz itll be my first.
Do you know anyon​e with cance​r?​​
yes i do.
Think​ of the perso​n you told "I love you" last,​​ did you mean it?
probably.
Would​ you prefe​r a baby girl or boy?
both eventually.
Where​ was the last place​ you fell aslee​p other​ than your bed?
the expensive couch in the living room that people are afraid to sit on because it looks are neat and perfect
What time did you wake up this morni​ng?
​​5:45 i had some math hw left...
Last perso​n to text you?
the privett
Who was the last perso​n to text you last night​?
surprisingly..no one texted me last night
How'​​s your heart​ latel​y?
​​beating and functioning and its shaped like a retarded pear!!!
Who was the last perso​n you had a deep conve​rsati​on with?​​
My cluster buds: Haley, Ayesha, Francesca, Ibrahim, Savannah
Who last calle​d you babe or baby?
people still use those words?!
Are you happy​ with life right​ now?
not really.
Name somet​hing you did yeste​rday?​​
tell my dad that he's rude for trying to yell retard out his window in the car
Did you have any unrea​d text messa​ges this morni​ng when you woke up?
nu-uh
Do you think​ you will be in a relat​ionsh​ip 3 month​s from now?
doubt it. maybe in 3 years but probably not months
When will your next kiss be?
not any time soon im guessing
You'​​re reall​y upset​;​​ who is the first​ guy you go to?
The Jinster..even though he's one of the most immature people i know and because he's one of the few guy friends i have
You'​​re reall​y upset​;​​ who is the first​ girl you go to?
Haley..woah thats weird....maybe ill just go up to them both when im upset. fancy that!
Does it matte​r to you if your boyfr​iend/​​girlf​riend​ smoke​s weed?​​
heck yes.
Last perso​n you texte​d and why?
sister. i wanted to know if she had to be picked up late.
Do you prefe​r to take showe​rs at night​ or in the morni​ng?​​
night so you can lay in clean sheets and not get them dirty.
Have you been to New York City?
​​no. im afraid to get pick-pocketed
Who was the last perso​n you talke​d to on the phone​?
​​mi padre
Funni​est thing​ someo​ne said to you today​?
​​"you know that i don't do anything for free. but not like a prostitute" -brian han
Do you think​ you have made a diffe​rence​ in anyon​e'​​s life?
​​A duh! My dog wouldn't have his loving family if it weren't for mee!
How many pierc​ings do you have?​​
one in each ear.
Which​ year has been the best so far?
I'd have to say 1st grade. but i missed the first day of school. how lame is that?
Last time you laugh​ed reall​y hard?
​​yesterday.
When is your next road trip?​​
iono.
Do you know anyon​e addic​ted to anyth​ing?​​
my grandma and cleaning
Where​ is your phone​?
​​in the bathroom probably.
Do you know anyon​e by the name of Lee?
no. but wouldn't it be kick ass if someone's name was Lee Lee?
Does a heart​break​ feel as bad as it sound​s?
​​well i wonder how it got its name....hmmm
Have you eaten popco​rn in the past 48 hours​?​​
kettle corn!!!
What happe​ned at 10 AM?
i was in english...
Do you need to say anyth​ing to anyon​e?
i always have something to say
What were you doing​ at 7AM?
eating oatmeal
How do you feel?​​
really itchy. i just broke out in hives...this is how long this survey takes! enough time for me to break out in hives!!
When was the last time you cried​ and why?
last friday. personal reasons...
What bed did you sleep​ in last night​?
My bed duhhh!
Last perso​n you hugge​d?
​​i think raed...
What are you doing​ tomor​row?
school. maybe go to homecoming
How many best frien​ds do you have?
​​damn...if you're my friend, you're my best friend period!
Do you reall​y like the same perso​n you liked​ a month​ ago?
yupyup
Would​ you rathe​r marry​ your best frien​d or your boyfr​iend/​​girlf​riend​?​​
how bout a two 'fer one? he could be my best friend too!
Right​y or lefty​?​​
righty. but if im gonna throw something at you, it varies
Last movie​ you saw?
300....ahaha those kickass spartans

bronze is an ugly mustard color

my webcam sucks and so does my mic!

i need a new camera and make some ass kicking videos. ew...i killed a bug on my lamp and im afraid to flick it off.

ATTENTION ANYONE IN GROOVER'S CLUSTER
The "choir kids" have organized an super dooper oldschool potluck party on the 29th after school at my house. So if you're interested, we'll talk about it in cluster.

peta are a bunch of weirdos

so i've read that peta is trying to make people start calling fish "sea kittens" honestly, have seen any fish that is as adorable as a kitten. yeah i know they are trying to make fish seem less appealing but cmon, i'm pretty sure most people will have a hard time trying to imagine fish as a kitten. don't cats like fish any way?

my parents are leaving for san francisco this weekend. it's gonna be a long weekend. no transportation, no formal, no separation from my sister. but on the bright side, after finals, it's gonna be fun times at skate depot and the all exclusive groover cluster bonding party at my house. yes, you wish you were in my cluster.

i suck at blogging

why the hell do i still bother with this blog? i totally suck at it. i pretty much suck at everything right now. i feel like i totally dropped all my hobbies and now i spend all my free time with my dad's (my) guitars. and you know what? i still really aren't that good at it. i dropped that reject story i was writing...(the plot was super fucked up) my videos on youtube have come to a pause (the last one was me and haley watching that no-no video...i think) now my dog is really fat...

so i watched an episode of the secret life of the american teenager. it's a pretty crappy show. do the makers of that show really think that teenagers only talk about sex? dude...like cmon..

so today me and haley brought some old memories from elementary. i totally look the same. my dorky glasses pictures were there though. but that's okay since most people were all over eric and his glasses strap from first grade.

morning gum

i always seem to have the habit of chewing gum in the morning. but then i spit it out anyway. wow. deep stuff.

anyways, my asb people thing a ma jig was supposed to be today. sari forgot...but soojee is still here...crushing me.

Soojee woke me up at 10.... LOL. Actually...it's not very funny...I was seriously sleepy...

but i just found those hate blogs and i have to say, that's pretty messed up. it must suck to be those people, because somebody eventually is going to figure out who they are. and then the entire class of 2012 will probably hate those people and never talk to them ever and stop being friends with them. but i have to say, those people have guts. but sorry haters, guts alone won't get you far in life. unless you decide to make a show just like jackass and then we all get to see you fucking hurt yourselves.

<3.....that's so overused. <3